emotions

i just wanted to check in briefly, i guess just to ground me a little. it is weird, because this is the last thing i should be thinking about, the computer, but i guess i just want a little fantasy and something to distract me from real life at the moment.

i have been going through so many different emotions this weekend. one of my very best friends just got married on saturday. we have lived in different cities for several years, so the first time i met her fiance was 2 days before the wedding. wow. they are really great together and i am glad they are starting a life together. her wedding was so beautiful. she lives in asheville and the wedding was on a farm surrounded by mountains. the town is very cute and somehow smells like cinnamon. the whole day was kind of cloudy and gray and she was really worried about the forecast for rain. but, at 5:00, when the wedding started, the clouds cleared and beautiful puffy clouds and blue sky appeared. there was not a dry eye in the house when she walked down the aisle.

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now i am visiting my family as we spend time with my grandmother who is in hospice. i am trying to remember her as she was and thinking of all the good times we had together.